Jonathan Vigil de The Ghost Inside habla de la angustia sobre no poder tocar

El vocalista de The Ghost Inside, Jonathan Vigil, ha dejado en Instagram la angustia que le produce no poder tocar en directo.

“Siendo completamente sincero y transparente, ir a conciertos es muy difícil. Y no me refiero a lo difícil en el sentido físico porque en la mayoría de los sitios todo el mundo es muy complaciente con los discapacitados o lesionados“, escribe Jonathan.

“Lo que quiero decir aquí es que es difícil estar en ese lugar. Es agridulce estar aquí. Me siento engañado. Me siento mal. Me siento obsoleto. Es difícil saber lo que éramos y lo que podríamos ser“, continúa. Explica que antes se enfrentó a la pérdida, pero esta pérdida es “algo a lo que no puedo enfrentarme“. Jonathan explica que agradece a los fans todo el apoyo pero que no terminará con lo que siente ahora mismo.

“Ver a una banda tocar con una sensación de celos que no debería haber pero que no puedo evitar. Me devora. Pienso para mí mismo: ‘Hice todo lo que pude’. Yo era ese niño en la multitud cantando, aspirando a estar allí“, se sincera.

“Trabajé duro y lo hice. Llegué ahí. Como todos los demás allí arriba. Entonces, ¿cómo es que corren por el escenario cuando ya no podré volver a correr? Ni siquiera puedo caminar por mi cuenta“.

Como sabéis, la banda se ha enfrentado a una recuperación extensa después de su accidente el pasado 19 de noviembre de 2015.

Being completely honest and transparent, going to shows is HARD. And I don’t mean hard in the physical sense because most venues, staff, security, patrons and show goers are very accommodating to handicapped or injured people. What I mean is it’s just hard… being here. It’s hard to know what we were and what we could be. I admit, I don’t go to shows as often as I should. As often as I want to. As often as I need to. But there’s a reason for it. —- It stings me. It hurts me. It’s bittersweet being here. I feel cheated. I feel wronged. I feel obsolete. Seeing a band play and knowing we had it. Knowing what we had. I had it. Watching a band play with a feeling of jealousy that I shouldn’t have but just can’t shake. It eats at me. I think to myself, “I did everything I could. I was that kid in the crowd singing along, aspiring to be up there. I worked hard and I did it. I got there. Like everyone else up there did. So how come they get to run around on stage when I won’t ever be able to run again? I can’t even walk on my own.” —- I’ve experienced loss before. Loss of innocence. Loss of youth. Loss of a loved one. But this loss is something I can’t seem to do anything to cope with. It’s a hole that won’t close. It’s like sitting around and watching a movie about your life, knowing how it’s going to play out and screaming for it to be different but you’re not the one with the mic anymore. No one can hear you. —- They’ll be lots of extremely kind sentiments, comments, wishes and thoughts on here. They always hit me and the words do help. The support is there absolutely, but it doesn’t end what I feel. That’s the honesty and transparency of this all. It’s like, would you go into something knowing the only outcome is heartbreak?

Una publicación compartida de Jonathan Vigil (@jonathanvigil) el Feb 17, 2018 at 12:08 PST